Tuesday, May 10, 2005
Okay, I guess I've been sitting for the chairs for too long & I feel like my butt are like so pain. UGH!
Bio & lit paper yesterday. Bio was easy, lit was a horror. I was crapping all the way. Haahaha! I kept repeating what I meant & all. Like, rephrasing it but its still the same meaning! :D
I've got no papers today, so no school. I realised the school is so quiet nowadays. Maybe it's due to the exams for Sec 1s, 2s & 3s. (:
I'm dead. I'm dead. I'm so gonna die.
My arty sketches ares till not done.
I haven't start yet. SHIT! pfffffffffffffft.
I don't know what to say about you. I don't know what made me hate you so much lately either. You changed a lot, I guess. You weren't the one I met few months ago. You're a fifferent you. Sigh. Maybe it's because you hide things that were supposed to be out & proven. I don't know. I guessed the reason why you wanna keep in between you & your gf. But, guess what, we're your friends & she's your best/close friend. Didn't you tried putting yourself into her shoes & think how would she feel that way? We realised you were damn secretive & all, but we didn't wanted to ask or whatsoever. We respected you, that's why.
I don't believe there's sucha thing called BLACK MAGIC. But if you think that is, so be it. But think about it, you said that we didn't put ourselves into your shoes, but have you? You didn't either, did you? Think. I don't wish to drag this on. I don't wish to make this worst. I'm sorry.
Baby, if we met each other under a different sky
Maybe then things would be much better between you and I
We could always hold on to this one special thing we shareBut it would be too much for us to bearI broke down last night.unfathomable piece of my mind.A night all alone in a dark room, sitting at a corner thinking about things that I shouldn't be thinking of. I can't deny you're still the one I've been loving, the one I dreamt of, the one I was thinking of, the one I wanted to be with. I'm living in self-denial all these while. I thought I've thrown you somehwere in my memory box. But no, you weren't there. You're still here. The pain, your presence still lingers around me. I'm sorry. Michelle Lim Jia Min!Thanks for those encouraging words that night. (: All much appreciated by muaaaaahhhh! You're practically copy&paste-ing what I've said to you, back to me. Hahah! But it's a good sign. At least you remember what I've once said to you. Heh. Oh, & I'm sorry. I've been talking to you & wasted your time when you're supposed to study! Hahaha! Well, everything in my mind was just an incomprehensible mytery, yes? I cried tears of reminiscence, tears of yearn. Tears that really hurt badly. Like I've told you, I can't promise you that it's the last cry. (: But I'll try? Study hard for the last few papers & shopping soon okay? :D I don't know what to do when you're gone. ):
; stick with you
